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MERMAN AXEL XD II

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I shudder into his hands but didn't let go nor push them away. I felt so bad at this moment I needed this contact. This small amount of contact.
I buried my face in his small delicate hand as my body shook with another sob.
"....h-home..."

"Home..." Of course he missed home. Out in the ocean, right? Of course... he must've had a whole family there. Family and friends and a home, a community of people he knew, of things he missed...
Finally, I couldn't take it any longer. I let go of him entirely, slipping into the pool beside him and wrapping my arms around him. I couldn't help but hug him. It hurt to see him like this.

I kinda squeaked at first when he let go of me and pratically paled as he got in but then he hugged me. He actually hugged me. I tried to back away from it a little but it felt nice. So I wrapped my arms around him and buried my face in his weird design of spikes.
I sniffled again and a few more tears escaped me but at least they weren't body shaking sobs.

"S-sorry... I just... I..." I let my head rest against his warm chest, the skin so pale and smooth. Yeah, I was the kind that got teary when others were crying.

"...f-fine...it's f-fine..." I tried to speak normal sentences but I hadn't used my voice in so long. I even had forgotten what it sounded like. I had used to use my voice all the time at home and now, usually there was just no point.
The door suddenly slammed and I gasped. It was Dem.
"Roxas! What are you doing?" I desperately let go of him and swam as fast as I could under water, hiding completely behind the boulder. Dem moved closer to where Rox was and glared at him.
"What do you think you're doing?"

"D-demyx! No I was just hug-"
"You were hugging him?! Did he say anything?! Did you get anything from him?! Why were you hugging him?! HOW?!" I flinched from his questions, my mind racing.
"No he was just crying and stuff so I hugged him 'cause he looked really upset and he didn't talk or anything but he just cried so...!!!" I wasn't about to tell them that he had spoke, even if it was my duty to do so. Never, ever would I tell anyone what had fully happened here.

"You're a strange one that's for sure." Demyx pouted and frowned that nothing else had happened.
But then...
"Guys! Guys I think I got it!" Zexion burst into the room with a full smile on his face.

"Zexion?" We both eyed him, me as I climbed from the water and Demyx pivoting towards the blunette.
"I've got it! The serum!"
"Serum...?" I echoed but Demyx jumped excitedly.
"You're sure it works?!" He practically screamed, hugging the blunette tightly. I blushed as Zexion hugged him back quickly, before pushing him off.

"It's most positive to work. I tested it like fifty times on your goldfish, Dem." Even though Zexion was still smirking Demyx paled and ran out of the room, screaming some name.
Zexion shook his head and smiled at Rox.
"Now we'll be able to experiment on the creature without a fuss."

"E-experiment... but what are you going to do to him? Kill him?" An edge of hysteria hit my voice and I held a hand over my heart painfully. Wasn't this animal cruelty?

"Are you joking? Why would we kill off the greatest discovery in science since a long time? And truthfully, I don't know what we'll do with him. I'm just so excited that the serum works." Zexion smiled happily as he placed his hands in front of his mouth, looking as if he could cry.

"...Okay..." Somehow I didn't believe part of it. What if they were cutting him open or something and then they hit an organ and he started bleeding and-?! I let out a ragged sigh, looking down at the pool. Axel...

"We'll start the experiments in the morning. And you should head to bed Rox, you gotta-OHMYGAWD, I Gotta GO tell VEXEN!" With that Zexion ran as fast as his legs could carry him out of the room.
As soon as I knew it was only Rox again I came up and gently grabbed onto his ankle with both hands.
"...s-scared..."

I looked down at him, eyes saddening as I bent down and pat his head idly. "I know... I'll be there when they... do whatever they do. I won't let them hurt you though. I promise."

I clutched at his hand again and wept into it. I just wanted to go home. I just wanted to get out of here. I wanted to be free.

"Oh Axel..." I breathed, looking down at him with amazement. Even when he was crying he was so beautiful. I smiled tenderly down at him. "It'll be okay Axel. I'll stay here for as long as you want."
I sat down in a more comfortable position, pulling my sandal-like shoes off and rolling up my jeans. I let my feet hang in the water, sitting close to Axel and stroking his wet hair.

I nodded for a moment and continued to cry. I clutched at his legs and laid my head in his lap, this is the most I felt comforted in a long time.
"...q-question....your..q-question.....it's-it's a blast...."

"I could've figured." I smiled softly, continuing to run my fingers through his hair. I could've guessed that swimming around all day would be fun. "May I ask another question?"

I wasn't really ready to get into a whole interviewish thing, I just answered his first one because I wanted to thank him for staying with me and being here fore me. Yet this could be thanks to, I guess. So I slowly nodded but I clutched tighter at his hand.

"Can I ask... what your favorite color is?" I smiled brighter. I didn't want to be asking personal questions anyhow. I guess... I just wanted to get to know him a little better. We were practically holding hands anyway; and I didn't do that for just anyone.

"Blue."

"Why?" Honestly, I thought it'd be red, considering his hair and fin color.

"The sea and y-your e-eyes..."

"M-my...? E-eyes...?" I felt my face burning and resisted jumping into the water to cool it down. "T-thank you... um, uh..."
I decided that indeed I did want to slide down in the water, so I slipped down into the liquid. I took Axel's hands in mine, smiling up at him nervously. "Hey, wanna swim around or something? It might get your mind off things."

"No...it just makes me all the more depressed. It's just a circle, it's not home." I said slowly as I looked over my shoulder to the water. I then leaned against the edge and sighed.

My smile faltered a bit, but it was still there. "Okay then."
I looked around for something to do, getting jittery quickly. Sure, I was a good listener and all I guess, but I wasn't one to sit around and talk for hours. "Umm... you hungry for dinner or something?"

I sighed slightly but nodded.
"I-I'm sorry..." I slowly whispered as I clutched at his hand.

"Huh? For what?" I raised an innocent eyebrow at him.

"I'm sorry...I'm not-the-the best with socializing...." I whispered softly as I held onto his hand as if it was my own beating heart.

My face became one of tenderness as I looked up at him. My eyes softened and I leaned up, pecking his cheek shyly. "That's okay Axel. I can teach you how to be social."
I laughed, but inside I was surprised with myself. I squeezed his hands, and although I didn't know why, it just felt... right.

I slapped my hand to my cheek and blushed.
"W-W-W-W-W-WHA...."

"Heh. I umm... uh... just wanted to do that..." I looked to the side, realizing how incredibly stupid I was. Stupid stupid stupid! I let go of his hands, looking down at the water between us for only a moment before jumping out. I jumped out and started running for the door.

He was long gone before I found my voice again. What the underworld? What the-
"He inking kissed me?"

Why did I feel like crying? Why, as I ran into the nearest closet and slumped against the wall, breathing hard, was I sobbing? Was it that possibly I loved the redhead?
Of course not. He's a man. No, he's not even a man. He was a fish. Half fish. He was something other than human! So it was impossible to like him. It wasn't as if we could actually be together. I mean... he's not human. Duh.
Well... it's not as if he could actually like me BACK. I know he held my hands and said he liked the color of my eyes, but that's just fish talk or something. Where he comes from that's probably just like an everyday compliment. Nothing. No meaning.
So therefore there was absolutely no reason for me to be crying. Yet all this reasoning, all this thinking, was not stopping the tears from flowing freely down my face.

I went over the conversation we had shared over and over in my head. Had I said something wrong? I mean I know I said I liked his eyes but that was because they reminded me of home, they kept me calm. They kept me sane.
Oh no! What if when I said I liked his eyes it was a bad thing here? What if I insulted him?

~~~

I had fallen asleep in the closet, awaken by a violent shaking caused by Zexion.
"Come on Roxas! Come on it's time to put Axel to sleep!"
That made me jump. "PUT HIM TO SLEEP?!"
"...Calm down. As in knocked out. Not killing him." Zexion eyed me like I was crazy. ...Which I probably was.

"Come on! Everyone is waiting around his tank so we can start. Now get up!" Zexion ordered as he rose the poor blonde to his feet and shoved him out of the closet. He then grabbed his arm and dragged him to the room that held the tank and sure enough everyone eyed them as they entered.

Everyone from the lunch table, and even more, were gathered around the tank as Axel swam haywire around the tank. He looked absolutely terrified. And I mean terrified.
"Axel!" I shouted, but it wasn't heard over the constant talking of all the other scientists. I pushed through the crowd, coming to the edge and leaning down. "Axel!"

I swam around, even knowing there was nothing there, desperate to find an escape. I wanted out. They'll kill me. That must be what they're here for, to kill me! I swam around desperately trying to find something, anything.
"-xel! Axel!" I snapped my head up to the surface and there he was. Roxas, he was here. I only stared at him for a while before sinking to the tank's floor, hiding my face withing my tail.

Thank god no one noticed me yet. For the first time in my life it was good to be short.
"Axel! Axel remember what I promised?! I won't let them hurt you!" I nodded for his own sake, desperate for a response, desperate to run my hands through his hair again and desperate... maybe even to kiss him once more.

"Alright everyone, listen!" Zexion screamed as he made the whole room go quiet and they all stared at him. He took out a long tube from the inside of his coat pocket and the whole room broke out in cheers and applause.
Demyx held up his hands to silence the room before turning to Zex, giving him a thumbs up.
"Thanks to this we are finally able to run tests on the creature named Axel. I know you are all are eager and prepared. You know your instructions. So without further- Roxas what are you doing?" Zexion had made his way to the edge but a little blonde was in his way. He glared down at the boy, waving his hand to the blonde gesturing for him to beat it.

"Uh n-nothing..." I stood up, backing out of the way for him to do whatever he would do. I barely heard what he was saying; I was only paying attention to Axel. Axel... he looked so terrified. So absolutely, positively terrified. And I couldn't do anything to help him...

Zexion's eyes softened as he eyed the crowed again.
"As I was saying, without further ado..." He smirked widely and I looked up into his cold grey eyes. He gave me a dark look and opened the tube holding it over the water
No...
"Let us begin." The purple liquid fell into my water, not dissolving but spreading. It spread everywhere and was sinking toward me.
I desperately looked for anything, anything to help. Yet it was all to no avail. As I was looking the liquid had sank to where I was, circling around me slowly.
No...
My fins and lungs inhaled it and I began to cough. I clutched at my throat as I laid out on the tank's floor.
All the scientist's gathered around the edges, watching me eerily. I was losing it. I was losing my senses, I couldn't feel and could barely see. My grip on my throat loosened and I laid out fully on the floor.
"H-help...." Was all I could say then it was nothing but dark.

"Axel..." I whispered in horror. He... he just... To watch him... like that... like he was dying or something... it hurt. It hurt my heart.
But I knew one thing at that moment, as I watched him pass out with such fear in his eyes; I would stay by his side the entire way.

The place broke out in cheers once more and Zexion sighed contently, very proud of himself. He then silenced the room and glared.
"ALRIGHT! YOU KNOW WHAT TO DO! DEMYX EMPTY THE TANK! SOME OF YOU GET THE SPRAY BOTTELS FROM THE CLOSET! OTHERS GET THE LABS READY! AND SOMEONE BRING ME A STRETCHER!"

People began rushing around, water draining out of the tank while shouts and calls were heard all around, something about needles, stretchers... I don't know. It was all too much for having just woke up.
"Zexion... what should I do?" I meeped, coming up beside him and looking down at the almost-empty tank.

"Roxas...oh, hmmmmm you can go with Marluxia and Vexen to get ice. We'll need it to put on the creatures tail." Zexion ordered as he pointed over to the two said people.

"Right... okay..." I had to rip my eyes from the tank, searching for Vexen and Marluxia. I found them rushing from the room, the pink haired one grinning while Vexen had a serious face on. I wasn't surprised. "Hey! Wait up for me!"
I chased them down, soon running along side them as we shifted through the crowd of what seemed like millions of scientists.

Demyx had emptied the tank to where it was filled with water that didn't go past ones knees. A stretcher was brought to the edge before a lot of scientists climbed down, ones with spray bottles and some with wet towels.
Shouts were called to be careful and easy. Zexion was watching and caculating the entire time of the slightest mistake. They finally got the redhead out of the tank and onto the stretcher.
"Where is the ice!?" Zexion screamed.

"Right heeere!" Marluxia sing-songed and came literally prancing in. I, on the other hand, was twitching due to his... flamboyance. He rushed up to the stretcher, doing something I couldn't see with the ice. Suddenly the crowd was moving with the stretcher, filing out the door in a clean order.

Most of the people filed into a lab and smirked as they began to poke and probed at the creature, doing all kinds of tests on him while others made sure that his tail stayed wet and moist.

-An Hour Later-

I watched silently as they lowered Axel back into the tank, and although he was technically awake, he was still dazed beyond being able to comprehend anything.
"Umm... is it safe to put him in the water?" I asked to the guy next to me, who happened to be Luxord.
"Well it's not like he's going to drown or anything." He scoffed, rolling his eyes as I flushed at my mistake.

The water was filled into the tank and the scientists cleared out, going to test on the stuff they had gathered.
I coughed as my eyes opened. I flanked around quickly looking around, scared stiff. I looked around everywhere before hiding behind my boulder and I cried. I didn't need to be a super genius to know what they had down to me.
And know they had the poison to do it again.

I remained, watching in terror as he cried behind the boulder. This was so wrong... doing this to something that breathed and lived and... and was alive... torturing it like this, experimenting, taking samples... it was so wrong.
"Axel..." I whispered, bending down as I felt the need to cry again. I had to... to get him away from here or something... I didn't care about the science... it was wrong! "Axel... I..."

I jumped up at my name and looked up. Rox-Roxas...he he was still here. I moved slightly from behind the rock and swam upward. I poked my head from the water and came closer to him.
"R-Rox..."

"Shh... it's okay Axel." I nodded for him, reaching my hand out in case he needed to squeeze it. "I'm not gonna hurt you okay? All the others are gone... you're safe."

I slowly nodded but just moved closer to him. I placed his hand upon my cheek as I gazed at him. I cupped his cheek slowly, not really sure what to do.
I won't let a living soul know this but as I was out I dreamed. I dreamed of...him.

"A-axel...?" I blushed a bit as I saw the look in his eyes, his hand on my cheek. What... what was he thinking about? I caressed his cheek with my hand, leaning a little closer subconsciously.

I leaned a little closer to him but blushed a little.
"Rox...Rox I don't know what to do?" I looked at him with a slow sorrowing look. "I'm sorry."

"It's..." A small smile came on my face. "It's okay Axel."
I felt my own face heating up and looked at him shyly. "Um... w-what do you want to do...?"

I smiled slightly and nodded.
"I-I don't know. I just-just..." I looked down at the water. I seriroulsy was so confused.

"Do you... I mean... how... do you feel about me?" I asked innocently, looking down at the water as well.

"I don't know... I mean i feel much calmer with you around." I smiled as I looked over at him with a light blush. He was the nicest one to me and always made me feel calmer.

My blush played up a bit more. "I umm... you make me feel kinda calm too actually... just... you know... kind of nice..."

I leaned a little closer and laid my head against his shoulder. I wrapped my arms around him.
"T-Thank you for everything Roxas."

"You're welcome..." I smiled as I hugged him as well, resting my head on his. For the moment, everything was calm as we sit there in silence, just enjoying the warmth of anothers embrace.

I smiled and gave him a tight squeeze before pulling back and gave him a delicate kiss on the cheek.
I didn't know if that was okay or not but he did it to me so maybe...

"Mn." My eyes shot open all of a sudden and I stared down at Axel. He had kissed me. His lips... had touched my cheek... in the oh so gentle gesture... "A-axel..."
I touched my cheek, jaw dropping a bit. "Y-you..."
And it felt amazing. That simple little kiss... was heaven. I leaned down slowly, not sure what I was doing until my lips touched his cheek as well. Soon though... somehow my lips had ended up on his lips and I was kissing him tenderly, my eyes closed now.

"MMNFF" I pushed him away slightly as he kissed my lips. I stared at him wide eyed and my jaw gapped.
"....w-wha..."

I leaned back from him, face reddening as I looked down at my hands. "I'm sorry... I went too far again. I shouldn't have done that. S-sorry... It... was uncalled f-for..."
I let go of him and leaned back, turning away from him. You messed up again Roxas. Good job. You went too far, right when things were getting good. Fucking lovely Roxas.
I stood and walked towards the door, knowing our sweet moment was over.

"Roxas, Wait!"

I paused in my steps, looking back at him shortly. My voice was barely a whisper, "What?"

I reached out my hand to him never letting my gaze wander from his.
"Please. Don't go." I whispered back to him as I reached as far as I could.

"But..." My eyebrows furrowed as I turned back around, stepping closer to him so he wouldn't have to reach so far. "I..."

I jumped out of the water and if only it was for a fraction of the second, I still kissed him fully on the lips before falling back into the water.

I gasped, stumbling backwards as his lips brushed against mine again. "You-?! But-?!"
I looked down at him wide eyed. Did... did that mean... he... ?!

I popped out of the water again and gazed at him. That had felt really good, even though I was breaking every single law of the merpeople world, it still felt so...amazing.
I leaned my arms on the edge and only gazed at him. I would be in trouble if anyone at home was to find out about this.

"I... Axel... do you... What...?" I spluttered, looking down at him. He... gave me a kiss back. On the lips. And... I wanted another one.

"I-I'm sorry, Roxas. I-I j-just do-I mean it felt really good and so-I thought..." I began to sputter out random things as I only looked down at the edge. I also didn't notice that Roxas was coming closer.

"Shh..." I leaned down to the edge, silencing him as I pressed a chaste kiss to his soft lips.

I wrapped my arms around his shoulders as I kissed him a little deeper, crying softly as I did. The greatest wrong I have ever done but it felt so bloody good.

I pulled away hesitantly, wanting to dive right back to his lips but noticing his slightly jerking shoulders.
"Axel... what's wrong...?" I whispered softly, looking at him closely as I moved a hand against his cheek. I wanted nothing more than to comfort him.

I looked up at him with wide eyes and choked back a sob.
"I-I just like you...a lot. I like you alot." I said slowly as I wasn't really sure if it was the right words.

"I like you too... but why are you crying...?" I caressed his cheek, wiping away some of his tears. All I could hear was the slap of water against the tank walls and our own heavy breath.

"I-It's against o-our laws to like walkers..." I tried to say clearly but it came out a slurred mutter as I cried a little more. I really did like Roxas, he had done so much for me, but it's so wrong for me too. It really bites.

"O-oh..." I understood the base of what he was saying and frowned. "But... that's not going to stop you right?"

"What do you mean? It's not as if we can...you know..." I whispered as I made my tail splash about the water and sighed. I gazed up at Rox again and held his hand, I hope he wasn't mad.

"I-I know but... I mean... we... can just kiss right...?" But I knew there'd come a day that kissing probably wouldn't be enough...
He was a different species then me, what was I expecting? Some 'Little Mermaid' fantasy where some big giant octopus lady turns Axel into a human? No. I don't think so. "Then... what do we do...?"
I didn't want to give up on him. I didn't want to just say goodbye to this... relationship because he was a fish.

"I'll kiss you til you can't take another." I whispered as I leaned up and placed my hand upon his cheek, giving him a light kiss on the other with a small dainty smile.

And at that moment, that sounded just fine. I deepened our kiss just a tiny bit, not wanting to scare him or anything as I moved my lips against his, the hand that had been resting on his cheek now twining in his hair.

I smirked into the kiss as I moved my hand upon the back of his neck. I licked along his bottom lip and moaned slightly as I could feel his hand jerking on my redlocks.
Rox...

My eyes lowered with ecstasy, my body turning into mushy love-goo as I moaned, louder than he had but still sustained a bit. I opened my mouth for him, moving my lips against his faster and with more need. I tugged gently on his hair, wanting more. No, needing more.

"Come in the water." I whispered gently after slowly moving away from his delicate lips. I looked up at him with lidded eyes and a small smirk upon my face.

I nodded without hesitation, sliding into the warm water carefully and looking up at him, not giving my mind a moment to think before I latched onto him and kissed the redhead again. His lips felt just so... amazing against mine.

I felt him wrap his legs around my tail and smiled as I kissed him again. I didn't even realize we were sinking as I kept contact with his face. But when we went under water and I pulled away from him, gazing at him. I remembered why we couldn't be.

I mouthed his name underwater sadly, knowing he was thinking the same thing I was. This would never work, no matter how much we tried, no matter how much we wanted it to. I swam upwards, head meeting the surface and taking in a large inhale. I blinked the water from my eyes, rubbing them a little as I saw Axel (who was only a blur of red at that point) coming back up.

"Rox..." I whispered slowly as I came closer to him and held him in my embrace. He was whipping at his eyes and I could just tell it was tears. I sighed, I wanted it to work out so bad but it couldn't.
"Rox....I-I love you..."

"You... do?" I looked up from his chest, reddened eyes wide. I thought he liked me, not loved me. There's a big difference between like and love. A very big one.

I don't know what was in me but there was definitely something. i guess the fact that I couldn't be with him made me want to be with him more. Made me love him. I held him closer and nodded.
"Yeah, I really do."

Okay... so he loves me. That's cool. No, that's awesome. Okay that's really, really good.
Now... what did I feel? Obviously I liked him... he was beautiful and smart and caring and needed me. But... did I love him? I hardly knew him; and I didn't believe in love at first sight.
Then again... wouldn't it hurt him to just say that I liked him? It wasn't like this was just some silly crush or something. I needed to commit to him or get out.
"I..." I started, but I was at a loss for words.

"I-I'm sorry...I know that is a big splash for you. You don't have to love me back. I promise..." I whispered into his ear as I heard the definite hesitation in his voice.

"Please... Axel don't feel bad. I... I might love you but... I... I'm just not sure... It's not your fault though. It's mine... I just..." I shrugged, looking at the scarce water between us before glancing back up at him shyly.

"Shh...it's okay."

"Thank you..." I wrapped my arms tighter around him still, hugging him -without my legs this time since I was sure we would sink if I did so- and sighed contently.
For a while more we talked, we kissed and we hugged some more until my yawns wouldn't die out and Axel told me to get some sleep. I climbed from the pool, shivering since I had gotten so used to the water temperature. I leaned down, kissing his lips once more before bidding him a goodnight and yawning once more.
I changed into another change of clothes, this one just an outfit I found as part of the staff uniform or something like that. I was shaking my hair dry when Zexion came in behind me, startling me. I was surprised he was still here... I mean it must've been pretty late.

"What are you doing here? I heard some noises in here and came to check it out." Zexion explained slowly as he came up closer to the blonde, immediately noticing he was wet.
"And what in the world were you doing?"

"Uhh..." I looked around, eyes darting until I saw a shower in the back. "I was... taking a shower?"
I scratched the back of my head, looking at the door behind Zexion.
"Well, gotta go get some sleep! Later!" I ran from the room before he could stop me, bag in tow as I slipped around multiple corners and eventually out of the building completely, where I started on the walk home.

Zexion scoffed and rolled his eyes before returning to his office.
"Kids."

~~~

I woke up stiff and sore, cracking an eye open and groaning loudly. More like screaming really, but that's beside the point. I rolled over, out onto the floor, which only put me in a worse mood. I untangled myself from my covers, growling as I slugged from my bedroom to my kitchen, a spacious room with lots of gleaming shiny counter tops and shining silver and blah blah blah AS IF.
I lived in a crappy apartment with not much money and not a lot of furniture. I didn't live in a dump, no it was quite... homey... but it wasn't some penthouse either.

"Axe! Get your little ass up here if you want food." Demyx growled as he placed the bucket on the rim. I only ignored him and sighed as I stayed behind the boulder, curling up into myself.
"FINE!! BE AN ASS! Fish Freak!" Demyx screamed as he put the food away from the pool and smirked. He would love to starve the poor creature. He stormed out of the room, going to complete over chores that needed finishing.

I came into work tired and groggy, soon finding myself traveling down the familiar hallway to Axel's tank room. I opened the door, immediately noticing the small bucket of food laying on the ground. I picked it up and sighed, setting down my bag on the ground before coming to the edge. I rubbed my eyes sleepily, yawning. "Axeeel? Want some breakfast?"


I literally perked up and smiled. I then did a flip as I swam up, instantly popping throught the water.
"ROXAS!"

To Be Continued.......
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Roxas's view -> *EmoAxelLover
Axel's view -> ~Ldrmas

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I love this fanfiction it is amazing I love the concept and the cute storyline thank you so much for writing this amazing piece of work